so i lied...

I thought I had nothing to say but thinking... well that is always dangerous.  It bothers me how the past always seems to bit me in the ass.  I think that I am past something but... i'm not.  i was on the phone last night with someone and i got to thinking about them and i just can't figure it out.  i don't know what it is.. when i think about them i still wonder today what it would have been like.  i just don't know.  i am happy now but will i be in years to come?  will i be happy with how life panned out years from now?  I just don't know.  every time i hear that he is engaged a little piece of me gets jealous and thinks to myself hey that could have been me.  i made the decision but still was it right?  i still don't know...